I See My Future In An Instant And There It Goes...

"The pessimist complains about the wind; the optimist expects it to change; and the realist adjusts the sails" These words inspire me a lot. I'd like to think that I adjust to the sails...Welcome to my site, I hope you enjoy your time here...Don't forget to sign the tag-board or guest book please!!!

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Incredibly, so much has gone on since I last updated. work has been hectic. However, things are begining to look up with my new manager. Although he takes advantage of the fact that Im short and he can say anything to me without upsetting me. It seems that he also trusts me enough to look after certain things pertaining to the store. I thought one of my co-workers was pretty cool until today. The guy sold about $12o worth of merchandise with about 3 service plans to a particular customer who I sold a $5 organizer to. Well, this person returned EVERYTHING this morning but instead of just returning what I sold to that person to my account, he charged EVERYTHING he sold her on my name as well. Soo, not to mention I started out with like -120 some-odd-dollars, I also lost $5 spiff. This also happens to be the co-worker who i woke up estra early to take to work because his car broke down. Help someone out and the give ya a nice stab in the back. My manager was pissed though and fixed it. But he is still upset over the fact that my co-worker actually did that.

People at school call me "Radioshack Girl." I don't know them but they know I work there because they have seen me or I have helped them with something. Thats so weird. I'm extremely excited. I met Ambassador Sanderson and I definetely know that I want to become a Foreign Service Officer. Im so excited over that meeting. So many good things came out of it. I love Humboldt!! As much as I do though, I do miss my home. And it sucks because my brother came to visit my family for a week and I wont be able o see him or my adorable nephew.

Thank you Johnny fo those incredible white roses I got from you. I also liked the bear. Very soft. Thy're still alive by the way. There is one rose that stands out in particular. Its beuatiful. It hasn't faded at the least. It stands out because it looks the same way it did the first day i recieved them. I cant thank you enough for those. It definetely made my month.
Dion-I miss you! Awesome friend to have around. Great listener and you have always understood everything I have been through. whenever Ive been down you've been there and thanks for that. I forgot to say "Happy valentines Day." Its supposed to be for Love and Friendship and you have been a great friend. Too many Good Times at VC.
Chris- You're sooo sweet!! This is what Chris wrote on my facebook online:
"Hey Lladie! Everyone who reads this, she is the most amazing, caring, friendly, heartwarming person you'll ever meet! She's pimpstress at heart also! If everyone in the world met Lladira, they would fall in love with her! Hope you're having fun! I got shot with a paintball earlier today when I wrote this.... "
-The Chris Guy!

..::Hope your paint ball hit doesn't hurt that much!::..

I went to a drumming performance up here and that was awesome! Ive never been to something like that. My roomates are into Reggae and are semi-hippies and took me along. Its was something totally out of the norm for me but overall a great cultural expirience. But since it was in a coffee shop. I ordered An Oregon Chi Tea with 2% milk. Yumm!! Im so addicted to those things. I think I have at least three a day.

I was chosen the leader for The Social democratic Party for our German election Simulation in my Political Science Class. I have a lot of work to do because we have to set up the party platform. My gosh eeek. Im also the President for The NP Class for Gamma and Im also the Fundraising and Community Service Chair. I have a lot on my lap right now its crazy. But I have to make the best of everything. I know I can handle it. I must anyhow. I want to. So, GOOOO ME!!

Lladira at 12:44 AM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

..::HOROSCOPE::..

Generally you prefer to think of yourself as down to earth and realistic, Lladira. However, today some powerful intuitive revelations could come your way, which could be too intense to ignore. This could involve premonitions that actually happen, or dreams or visions that shed light on your own situation. This is a good day to sequester yourself and reflect or meditate on what you're learning. It could represent a turning point in your life.

Wow, thats a bit freaky...

Today was a great day. Unfortunately I'll be working for 27 hours next week which kick my ass. I'm a bit depressed because of Eddie. Turns out that the whole accident was due to the driver loosing control of her car and smashing into two trees. The thing that sucks is that they're ok and Eddie is now in intensive care because of internal bleeding. All the girls and his Lamda brothers were there. Its so depressing. Also, yesterday, Johnny recieved a ticket and the police officers were total jerks. Someone needs to kick all the people who get power trips like that. I dont like that and certain people know exactly why. I hope my day is better tomorrow.



GOOOO EAGLES!!!


That one is for you. :)
Song Of The Day: Linkin Park "Faint"

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can't help the fact that everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you want what I've got

[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand
I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense
I say what you never wanna say
but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got

[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored) (Now)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)
(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

[Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
I can't feel I won't be ignored Time won't heal Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored


Lladira at 11:32 PM

Thursday, February 03, 2005

I got a henna tatoo! Its beautiful. I thought it wasn't going to come out the way I wanted it to because for some reason it seems that my skin will not absorb the pigment of the color very easily. It was a great night. All the girls and myself got together for that. Amazingly, they thought I was cute because I laughed every time they tried applying the henna and the ecalyptus oil. Im so ticklish its hilarious sometimes. I got hit on today. I should keep track of these things. I think since arriving at Humboldt, I've gotten hit on more than any times in my life placed together. I left my phone at Radioshack and I felt like kicking myself in the but for that. Its quite hilarious though and Im sure adam is going to give me a hard time. Brandon, my manager, was making this big deal yesterday because Jenny was helping me with the Parts certification. It was ridiculous though. I have a particular song in my head right now. Describes my feelings at the moment. Its one of those weird phases. eh...

Jaguares: "FIN"

Si yo me fuera antes de amarte
me suicido cayendo al mundo con mis alas
y aquí en la tierra te doy mi esencia
te doy mis cielos todos mis sueños
con tal de ver el calor
de tu calma
de tus manos
de tu risa
de tu alma

Fin,todo tiene un fin
menos el fuego de tus ojos
que se pierden
profundo en el misterio
de las historias que no cuenta
el celestial calor del sol

Y después de un tiempo
te vuelvo eterna
te saco del mundo, te purifico
y nos perdemos volando en lo eterno


Dame tu vida
te doy mi esencia
nuestra última entrega
de un gran principio


Fin,todo tiene un fin
menos el fuego de tus ojos
que se pierden
profundo en el misterio
de las historias que no cuenta
el celestial calor del sol


Lladira at 3:34 PM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Wow, Its been quite a while since Ive last posted and so much has happened since then. Im now 19 and it feels like this year is going to be better than last which is always the case. My mother did forget about my birthday again which was a bit funny but at the same time quite saddening because it was also the day I left for college. Yep, for those of you that do not know, Im a Humboldt Lumberjack now. Go JACKS!! I have awesome professors and great classes!! It is soo incredible up here. Its gorgeous and there is so much to do. Im going to learn snowboarding! Yay! The mountains are like 30 minutes from here. I miss you Johnny!! The quiero muchisimo! Thats about it for an update for now. Song of the moment: :"Collide" by Howie Day.

"COLLIDE"
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide
Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Lladira at 10:16 PM

Friday, September 24, 2004

Redesigning my blog.
Enough said about that...
Lladira at 1:55 PM

Friday, July 16, 2004

My goodness! Such a long time since I last updated. I have more time to do so now and I shall try not to neglect this in the future. First off, I think Im going to start by saying "Thank You" to Chris, Willy and the rest of the 2003 graduates that helped make that nice BIG sign for me for graduation. I really apriciate the fact that you guys went out of your way to do so!! Thanks everyone for the flowers!! I recieved so many and I used up three vases in my house just to set them all out! I had my big grad bash a few weeks ago and thanks to all that attended. It was great to see everyone play spoons! Pocholo really knows what its like to wear make-up now :)
I participated in the TOYL camp this year as well and it was quite the experience. I'm glad to say that Rachel and other of the chaperones where there. I believe that without them, it wouldn't have been as great. I did buy a Cal Lutheran tank top that was on sale for $12. yay!
I have been going to school at Moorpark and I can only say that I'm having a blast there. My classes, teachers, and classmates are all fun! Especially in my english class. i happen to be the youngest in that class and I'm with a great group. To pass the time quickly in there our group likes to make jokes about everything. That Japanese boy in there is the most hilarious kid. He breaks out with the most hilarious comment. we also watched Ferenheight 9/11. Good film. I recommend people actually go out and watch it. Michael Moore actually makes a really good argument. I've been seeing people off and on and I can only say I really miss the KSG girls. We have not been all together since graduation. I miss flagging and not seeing them everyday during the summer anymore. Also, practice for Clarivel's Debut is loads of fun. I have to wear pink!!! AHHHHH! But because it means so much to Clarivel, I shall not complain. There is so much I'd like to say and do but I just can't think of at the moment. Hope you're all having a good summer!! :::MUAH::::

Lladira at 8:44 PM

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Gah! Sorry Chris! Jesus why didn't I read your entry sooner!!? Shekainah is a freshman this year dear not a junior. I'm positive, Lladie would know. (Plus I she's a first year in ROTC) Sorry Chris! I can't believe they lied to you too...But I gotta watch out for my friends... ::hug::

FELIZ BIRTHDAY JUAN!!!!



:: My boy is 18!!:: Now we can get arrested together like Thelma and Louis and trialed for the death penalty too! We are now vunerable to get slapped with a saggetory rape lawsuit and we can gamble at Chumash! Buahaha! We can legally smoke, vote, and sign for your own papers at docters and such. best of all, we can buy the lotto and scratchers too!
Lladira at 10:50 PM

Monday, April 19, 2004

Wow, over a month of not writing anything. I wonder how many people actually read this anymore. I'm sorry. I've been so busy with so many things. Anyhow, I'll beginwith where I left off a month ago. Well, Short Flag Nationals kicked butt! We placed 10th!! That's all we wanted this year, to place that is. We spent our sadies at Disney's California Adventure for the after party. It was ok this year. Jeannie and I had decided to ride the the roller coaster at least 10 times but once we got to 5 we got really dizzy. hehehe. After that competition we had Miss Dance/ Drill team USA and we did not place at all this year but we sureeee were not last! That was another goal we had this year that we accomplished. We had some fun and I love UCI!! I even went and got some BOBA there. Its great!

I've been studying hard and working on Military Ball this month. Its been quite hectic and time consuming. Its narrowed down to the last week and I am still running around finishing the payments. Juan is going to Stanford!!! I hope! I'm so proud of you Juan!! I knew you had it in you. I'm so happy that you got in. And Lyan is going to Berkley! Congrats on that too! At least you two will be close by! Amy got into MIT and I am so glad she did. I remember how she was bummed out and thought she was not going to make it in.

Spring break was a blast this year. I think this year topped it off too! Rachel and I went to spend the weekend with my sister at San Bernardino and I have so much to say about that. This is what happened this spring break:

Day 1: I didn't do anything but sleep in. I got in trouble with my mommy for not going to church on good Friday this year. To top that off, the shorties were supposed to hang out together in order to celebrate the baby's birthday (Michelle). Because I didn't go to church, I wasn't allowed out; thus, I could not go out with the girls which bummed me out. Later that day, Rachel came over to hang out and we talked for a while and discussed military ball.

Day 2: Tega and I made plans to hang out that Saturday. We went to the mall and hung out most of the afternooon. He needed to buy a couple of things as I did. It was funny becase our intent was to go buy ice cream and we eneded up not getting any at all. I did get Jelly Belly's at the end! The watermelon kind too! We chose some birthday cards for his sister, a serious one and a funny one. The funny one was hilarious. It was such a boy thing to say too. That was the beginning of a great sprng break. Thanks Tega!!!

Day 3: I went to y aunts house in Palmdale to spend Easter and celebrate my nephew's birthday. It was a nice family gathering and all though it was quite warm it was nice weather. My cousing just got engaged to a pretty popular L.A. radio spokesman and he asked her to marry him on T.V. on that past Friday too! He is extrememly nice and not snobby at all. Chris wanted to talk and stuff but I wasn't home at all. My mom got mad at me that day for missing chruch on accident. I was caught up on ironing everyone's clothes that I forgot to get ready myself and they couldn't wait for me.

Day 4: The C-130 flight was on this day. That was great! I met so many Camarillo cadets and some more Hueneme cadets. I already knew Adrian Pulido and I met Jacob Elder and we got along great! Jennifer Cordova is very sweet too! I also got to talk more to Ignacio Juarez. He has the cutest baby I swear! Its soo little. After that flight. Rachel, Adrian, jacob, Ignacio and I hung out. We got some Jamba and then they came over to my house. Then we took Rachel home and the guys hung out at my house until about nine. After that I took Ignacio home and that was the end of that.

Day 5: I relaxed at home! Yay! The Rachel, Tara, and I wentto buy some things for military ball. We made some of the sashe s then w eplayed around with the tiara's for a while. I talked to my new friends and Rachel and I talked and made plans for that weekend.

Day 6: I went to the Beach day at Point Magu. Pulido, Elder, Peterson, and I had a blast. Another Camarillo cadet named Jen Cordova likes monkeys like me. Rachel got soo sun burned and I just got a bit tanned. I also bought Peachy Pinguins! Yum! After the beach day Rachel and i went to my house washe d up and relaxed. Suprise of all suprises, Adriana and Jacob came over and took us to Applebee's. I've never beent here before and it was ok. Their lemonade was really good. We also washed my temporary car. (My dad sold it today)

Day 7: I was planning on relaxing but I decided to wash my mom's van to make up for not going to church sunday. She is still a bit upset about that. After that I was putting away the laundry and Jose stopped by. I had told him to hang out with me this week but he took me off guard. CJ was with him and I still needed to pick up some ribbon for the sashes so we went on a little road trip around Oxnard. First we stopped by CJ's friend's house. After that, we stopped at Ignacio's house. I got to see his cute puppy! Its soo playful! I also saw a few pictures of his baby. Its so little and cute! He also has various Aztec calendar's around his room which i thought was freakin' awesome! (Given that my bloodline is Aztec and Spanish. I'm a mestizo basically.) We talked for a few hours and then went to pick up the ribbon. After that, we stayed at Tara's for like 2 hours doing sashes and playing with the tiara's again while Jose watched Matrix Revolutions. After that I went home and ate dinner. unfortunately, as I was going to go cash a check I got from Mrs. chivallier, I hit my dad's tow truck with the van. It wasn't a had hit. It was very light but it was enough to scratch the back of the van and partially dent the bumper of the truck. I payed the remaining part of my dress. ( I should be getting that tomorrow.)

Day 8: rachel and I took the Amtrak to L.A. it was my first time riing the train and I was excited. when we got to L.A. we took the metrolink to San Bernardino and we weren't supposed to. LOL! We got a free train ride. We got there a lot earlier though so that's ok. Fabian, my sister's classmate, payed for our dinner that night adn that was really nice of him. We went to my sisters and changed. We picked up John and went down to Baja Cali to go clubbin'. After that experience which was loads of fun, I think I still like Italy's club better. But I still had a blast. Rene wanted to show of that he was a marine tot he guy I was dancing with and it turned out that the guy (Luis) was a marine sergent! We took some pictures. I think rene and rachel might hook up which is what I am hoping for. She is a really nice girl and he is a great guy. As we were going home at 4 and next thing you know we ran out of gas!! Since I was the lightest one, Amada and John had me steer the truck while Rachel and then pushed. fortunately, a guy stopped at the side of the road and helped out.He got us some gas and we were able to go get more gas. We didn't get home until 6 am. We slept in until noon and then got up and ate breakfast. We knocke dout again and didn't wake up until 5pm. That was crazy!

Day 9: After we woke up, we changed and fabian wanted to go celebrate his birthday. We were supposed to stay in the area and instead we went to San Diego and ate dinner at an expensive mexican Resturant. We also went to Camp Pendleton. HOT marines! Yeah! After that we ended up at baja Again. Geesh what a night! Of course, Rachel and rene Hung out and I met a hot Asian guy from Oxnard! LOL! Hewent to CI before. Also I met a hot guy named Terry from Temecula. Very polite guy! Anyhow, that was great! came home at 7;30 am. Geesh talk about a night!

Sorry I haven't been able to talk to a lot of people. I've been so caught up on everything. Especially Chris who needs to talk to me about something. Other than that I LOVED SPRING BREAK!


Lladira at 1:58 PM





QUOTE OF THE DAY!: "Saying it's impossible, is not dreaming at all." -- ME!! ha I've finally been inspired...


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